Deep Breath Breathe in, Breathe out... *breathes deeply* There, no more stress, Aunti Flow you can come now. Anytime. You've got a couple of weeks before the end of the month. Here sits an application to Frazoli's. Woo woo I can spell it right now! I juss..hafta like fill out my whole life on this paper and hand it in so they can tell me they gave the job to someone else. But it'll be my first step! Man, I'm so lazy. At least Kirri attempted to get a job... Speaking of Kirri...she left me a comment on my journal saying she needed to tell me something that Dereks said to her or something....This doesn't sound good. She's got me scared now. But of course, she'll post pone talkin to me. Oh, and I found out that ...that award thingy on Wednesday is for being on Sound and Light. Hahaha....people hate us, we didn't do anything for them...pff. Health Days was frickin' awesome! No rain or anything, the worst thing was that everyone got burnt! hehe I went to the parade, I was pritti. I decided to wear my pink skirt and white hoody. Everyone asked why I was so dressed up and looked at me strange. After the parade I went and changed into jeans. I saw a nice lookin' car pull up, I was confuzzled. Then Dallan got out in his band shirt and shorts (teehee), you have no idea how excited I was. Someone thought of me! And it wasn't even a girl! (Like any girl would but still...) I went out and hugged him. I told him he was going to the park with me. I went to the bank and stole 20 bucks from me Mutti and then went to the park. Dallan had a tag along, we can never remember her name, she's 14, annoying ish. Then I found Megan. We all hung out. I saw Minnie Mouse and she said that Derek was over there with Natalie. I giggled. I knew exactly when she said "Derek" that she was seeing Ryker. Redheads. Pff.. But I went to find Natalie, but Megan was with me and didn't wanna be with her. So I juss..didn't talk to Natalie. I swear I have a one track mind. "I want Chinese. Now." We got Chinese. I did the duck pond thing and got a braclet. I went to the lil' Princess shop for the lil' girls and got a white feathered boa. teehee...I spent like 20 bucks in one day and most of it at the park! We watched shows too and we saw a boy and girl dance on this stage and they did the coolest moves! I soo wanted to do those moves right then! But I didn't know how or who with... That was the first time I actually went and got money and went to the park for Health Days and spent all the money I wanted on what I wanted. Teehee...That's always been a dream of mine. eeee And I didn't even feel bad spending this money b/c it wasn't mine. So juss b/c I got what I wanted, when I wanted, that made the whole day great. Afterwards, Dallan came over and we talked on my couch. I made fun of him. Poor kid, no wonder he doesn't visit me. After he left I took a shower. I forgot to call Derek, so I juss drove over there. He sounded sick. He's so worried about getting me sick. To be honest, I am sick. But I'm hiding it very well and I can't really afford to get sick b/c I have to perform this weekend. Black and White days at Richmond. :D He gets me sick everytime. He's so worried about it. Sheesh. He sounded betta today. We'll get over it. He wanted to go tie shopping. We went in my car. Natalie called and wanted to go to the movie. Yes, she basically needed another babysitter for her and Ryker. Ryker used one of his 'driving coupons' that night juss b/c he wanted to drive Natalie somewhere. Cuckoo. We took separate cars which is against the rules so Ryker was freaking out. He didn't tell us we were supposed to go with him. Sheesh. We went and watched The Pacifier! It's hilarious. Derek decided he wanted to drive afterwards. I knew I shouldn't have let that happen. Of course, he and Ryker had to duke it out on the road. Eventually, we pulled off so we could go back to Wally World and get him a tie. He went in and picked out a tie right off the bat. Wasn't the cutest, but whadeva he wants. He wanted to take me out and feed me, but something told me not to so I got all whiny and like cracked my voice like I was crying, "No! I wanna go home!" He totally fell for it! hehe.... On the way home we were next to this silver truck with two guys in it. Derek decided to keep the same speed so they were side by side, and they sped up to get away from him, but he juss sped up to be next to them again. So it was obvious Derek was like harassing these guys. So they were like racing at the lights an' all. Then juss as our street to turn on was coming up they sped up and like totally wasted Derek. I was laughing so hard. He had like a half a block an' stuff and his first reaction is, "I'm not going that fast! Not matter what!" But you could tell he totally wanted to race those guys. I laughed, "They totally wasted you after you harassed them!" haha Now, my car ish pritti good....well, I guess it depends on the driver now doesn't it? hehe I rubbed it in his face all night long. Maybe I shouldn't do that, he takes pride in his cars and ability to race. Even those men totally wasted him to get him back. hehe When we got home we called up Dustin and had him bring home McDonalds. We all ate McDonalds. weeee... He fed me some fries. After that we went down to watch TV. Nothing is on Saturday. I remembered it was Senior Prom Night. I like stared off into space thinking about it and he's like "What are you thinkin' about?" I like gave him a lil' puppy dog face and tried not to crack my voice too much and said, "It's ...prom night...everyone's at prom.." haha I told someone I would like cry on prom night juss to make him feel bad. But I didn't mean it. I'm so cruel. I don't know if he noticed or thought much of it. He juss got up and hugged me. Afterwards we were kinda tired. I made him lay on the couch b/c he was sick. I sat on the floor beside him. Eventually, we were like 'resting our eyes', he was on the couch sideways and holding my hand while I was on the floor on my back holding his hand. hehe It was cute. Reminded me of at church, the McCombs, cute couple. Old, same height, same lil' sticks with gray hair. Both their heads bowed down and holding hands with their eyes closed. It was like two lil' old midgets holding hands and sleeping. hehe ....Cuteness! Then I took him home. I made him take my contacts out juss b/c he thought it'd be cool. I drove home blind. It was cool! I've been to lazy to put contacts in lately. Why does this one song on the Phantom have such a catchy tune? grrr... That was my Saturday night. Yes, prom night. I totally missed the fireworks tho. I was kinda mad/disappointed. ______________________________________________ Now for today. I decided to basically wear all black. I have my black glasses, my 'blah blah' shirt, my black plastic jacket, my black flip flops. The only thing not black is my jeans. I came upstairs and Vati looks at me weird. I'm all "What?" and he's like, "You look like you juss came out of the movie theatre." Now tell me, does this make sense to you? Me neither. What does the movie theatre have to do with wearing black? I pondered that for a couple minutes, but it was too early in the morning. I did my hair Ashely Horman style, very loose pig tails. That got annoying fast. In first hour we're testing. Peace and quiet for an easy test that doesn't count on our grade. Second hour we were supposed to play games, Ber got bored of it and I started writing in my 'quote book' (idea stolen from Ber; a very good, relaxing idea actually). After Megan had her fun with the action figure army men she began to read too. hehe I really got to start listening to the man in 3rd hour instead of reading/writing. Honestly. Oh! It was hilarious! In 4th hour I was talking to Miles. He asks, "When is Prom?" "Um, that was like...this last Saturday, like as in two days ago." "No way! Are you serious?!" "Yeah, why?" "I ...had a date..." I laughed so freakin' hard. "I'm gonna get slapped!" "Oh, I'm sure you'll get more than that... I wanna be there to see it!" "I think I'll avoid her for the rest of my life." She asked him out tho, he only agreed to go b/c he didn't have to pay for it. He prolly juss crushed her dreams of ever going to Senior Prom. Poor girl. I don't know who it was tho. Tina something or other. He doesn't even know. It still makes me laugh. I still have like 6 or 7 math assignments to do in that class tho before Friday. Pff... Then at lunch I found out that Cassie wasn't going to go to rehearshal today so if I was going I'd hafta find a ride. grrr.. I go today. She doesn't. I don't go morrow. And she does. I hadda tell Dustin to drop me off at Muttis work so I could steal the car for tonight. I needa go in the next 1/2 hour tho. I'm kinda scared, rehearshal alone... I needa find out my costume situation and the parade stuff. EEeeee..I'll go with a good attitude. Nate is moving into his Grandmas tonight. WEeee I'm so excited. hehe. I wish I could help him move in. hehe I wonder how he's getting to school? In 5th hour we made Power Point Presentations but I couldn't think of a cool joke to use. I'm so lame. I kinda forgot how to use all the PP features tho, esp XP's new stuff. hehe This is turning into another novel. Big whoop. News flash. I saw Jordan and asked where Derek was and he put his arm around me and like sucked me into him and his fat. Then he saw Derek and put his other arm around so he was like hugging me. I didn't wanna get totally sucked into his fat so I kept my arms away from him. He kept asking if Derek was going to kick his butt. I was like yeah, prolly. Then with the way Derek like attacked Jordan, Derek was surprised Jordan was scared of him. Oy vay...It was funny tho. I made Nate laugh today. :D I like to make ppl laugh..."Laughing is the shortest distance between two people." I have homework but I don't wanna do it. haha I have an application to fill out and I don't wanna do it. I have a rehearshal to go to but I'm scared to go alone and first time in Richmond. Crap! I don't really know where it is...can't be too hard to find tho. For goodness sakes, it's Richmond. hehe I should eat some more before I go, but I don't want to. Heck, I don't wanna do anything but sleep right now. I should stop typing. I'm so over Derek's having to work thing. I won't have anymore temper tantrums anymore. I'll still be with him. I still haven't talked to him about the guarentee that we could be together this summer. "Say you love every waking moment..." I want a life so bad now. A job. My week seems to be full of sunshine juss b/c I have something to do, somewhere to go every day after school now. I'm performing this weekend! Oh my gosh! It's gonna be a good week, but prolly busy with homework too. But I have something to do! I'm not depressed when I actually do things! weeeee.... There, yet another novel written by Wednesday.