Love is... "Love is giving someone the ability to destroy you, and trusting them not to." Depression slowly took over me. Hence the lack of journal entries lately. I'm slowly over coming it. Must stop the stress and only the tiredness of the never ending, same ol' cycle of life remains. On Sunday I decided to be happy. I decided to use the words 'Thank you' more in my vocabulary. Surprisingly, it boosted my depression scale up to the brighter side of things. I'm doing better now. The days seem to go slowly tho. Today I went to the dollar stores and bought me Mutti some things for Mothers Day. I bought her a big ol' brown teddy bear, it was frickin' 5 bucks tho, but that's okay I love her and I'll prolly steal it from her anyways. :D I got her a lil' award thingy that was written "I Love You" in a dramatic way. I got her a piggy bank full of Tootsie Rolls (her fav) and a card that says something to the effect of, "From both of us (I was thinking Scott and I?) It's easy being a great mom when you're blessed with great kids....(and on the inside) ...which makes your accomplishment that much more impressive!" I don't really get it. But whadeva. Question: When you see a frame with 'I love Mom' written on it...Who's picture do you put in the frame? You or your Moms? If you didn't have the choice of putting both of course... My butt hurts. In the oddest place to. I think it's b/c of my clinging to Derek too much. Yes, literally clinging to him. He's gotten into the habit of picking me up. He can pick me up like he picks up a five year old, and the sad part is, it's the easiest way for him to hold me! I bet he likes it tho, b/c he touches my butt. *sniggers* I guess my legs and butt juss get tired of trying to tense up and wrap themselves around a frickin' bean pole all the time! I attempted to make him late for work the other day. I wrapped my arms around him and of course he was too passive to make me let go so he walked home with me still clinging to him. That's when he picked me up like a lil 5 yr old and put me in his car and drove like mad to get me home. He didn't get to work until 4, he's supposed to be there at 3:30, but he got stuck in traffic! And I don't even feel one bit bad about it! Mwhahahaa...I got to spend more time with him! weeee! I was babysitting Scott today. We rocked on the rocking chair. He fell asleep. Later I turned off the TV. I couldn't move him at that angle. So a few minutes later I fell asleep. We both were asleep on the rocking chair when Vati came home. He took Scott to his bed. Scott really was out cold, I didn't realize. I took a shower. I'm gonna be pritti morrow. My pink skirt, with my white sweater/hoody, okay so it's actually Kirri's (poor girl, I steal everything from her and never give it back. But she never wore it!). Then I'll like curl my hair in those lil' wringlets everyone likes to pull. I juss don't know what shoes to wear. And I hear Derek doesn't hafta work morrow so I guess I getta hang out with him. And Natalie and Ryker said they'd go shopping (Natalies idea) so it'll be like a double date morrow. wwweee....I juss have a lot of homework morrow. I still have money issuses. I spent like 10 bucks on Mutti today. I needa get Dallin a CD for his BDay soon. I needa get money to get my film back. I needa go to Hastings and I think I wanna get the Phantom of the Opear soundtrack. And I wanna get a small something something for Dereks Mutti for Mothers Day juss to let her know how much I appreciate her raising such a ....fine...fine...son. *smiles innocently* No matter what. Morrow is gonna be a great day. I'll be pritti and I'll have my boy toy plus other friends! My next goal in life: (Brace yourselves this is big!) I'm gonna learn how to do the Around-the-world dance move thingy! Yeah, like the guy twirling the girl around them...an' stuff...yeah....okay that sounded pointless and stupid....moving on.... I miss spending time with my Kiwi and Princess....*sniffles*