Stress. Projects due. Sinus headaches again. No pills. Pain. Wisdom teeth pulled. Stupid Holiday. Boy talking to me again. Confusion. IHOP though today! 7:40a.m. the boy called me. Not texted. But called me. What is wrong with him?! Why is he suddenly talking to me again? It's like having an enemy for a month and suddenly they pop up on msn and say "I miss you". What are you supposed to say to that? "Uh... I missed you too, though you prolly know that by now when I'm pritti sure I've been talkin to a brick wall whenever I attempted to contact you in the past..." I HATE how everything is on HIS time. When it's convienent for him to talk to me, he will. When he wants to see me, he will. Forget when I want to talk or when I wanted to see him. Like the world revolves around him. I texted him last night after class, even though he said to call and he said he was sleeping. Essentially, "Forget you, I'm sleeping". Pff. That's the second time someone's ditched me for a frickin' nap. He always has 'good' excuses. If I had time to take naps I'd ditch you all!! Take that. Losers. I'm getting sick and tired of how I'm being treated sometimes. I ain't tolerating that much longer. I have a life too ya know.. just cuz I don't have the transportation to come see you, doesn't mean everything can be run on your time. He texted later that night after I left him alone to sleep and said, "You didn't call." Um.. no, I didn't, you were sleeping. He said I could've called later or something, yeah like I'm supposed to know when he gets up? And I'm supposed to care after he ditched me? Yeah, no. I was done with communication for the rest of the night. Then he asked if he could see me Wednesday. I laughed and said "right, sure" We'll see if that happens. But I couldn't remember when I said I'd be home for those boys to home teach me. This Wednesday or the next... Now he's all initiating contact now. Weird. Calling me baby and beautiful all the time. Well, I certainly ain't initiating seeing him anytime soon. Blah! He really knows how to make me feel like crap. I've been in relationships where I'm the Princess and then the others where I'm just the object. I think I'll walk away from this one.. He can act as interested in me as he wants to. But I think I'll stay my distance. It's kinda nice to have it the other way around this time. Maybe he'll feel like crap or..or something! BAH! Stupid cow! ___________________________________________________________ "Face down in the dirt She says this doesn't hurt She said I've finally had enough I've finally had enough!" Feb 13. 2008 I don't think he's worth wasting another journal entry on so I'll just continue this complaint on the boy. So James' reason of speaking to me again is simply: "I missed you" Thats...it? Okay, let's look at it from another angle, why did you stop talkin to me in the first place? He stopped talking to me b/c every time he did he felt like I was disappointed in him all the time (no duh, really? Think there's a reason fer that genious?) He got tired of it and so he..ignored me for like 3 weeks. What?! That simply pissed me off. Cold shoulder for three weeks...simply just cuz. Oh sure he had a reason, it was lame, but a reason. You can't just ignore someone cuz they were mean to you by telling you the truth. Esp if you want a relationship with them. You can't ignore your spouse for 3 weeks at a time, you have to live with her! That is just..so immature! It doesn't take me three weeks to get over that and stop telling you the truth. It just takes you three weeks to get over it yerself. What's the next thing that's going to make him give the cold shoulder for weeks at a time huh? I can't imagine what else could cause him to act so immaturely. There's a difference between emotional/girly and just plain immature. I told him what I thought of him and he ignored me. Okay. I can handle that. But then coming back?! As if my feelings for him have changed? Uh, no. He's still a huge disappointment and I wouldn't date him if my life depended on it. Why the hell did he come back in the first place? Let alone think it was going to be...different this time? "Because I missed you" Bull. And again, it's all on his time. "I feel like talking to her again" It doesn't matter what I wanted now did it! He's like "I thought of you the other day and I couldn't stop thinking about you". That's great, that's nice you thought of me once in those three weeks. Seriously, it didn't matter that I frickin' thought of you every frickin' day and actually texted you all the time even tho I was talkin to a brick wall now did it? It didn't matter to you before when you didn't talk to me, why the hell does it matter to you now? Did I mention immature? "Screw you and your damn dog!"