My parents anniversary Saturday July 19 or today Sunday 20...I can't remember but they went to 'celebrate', once they remembered themselves, by going out to eat on Saturday. They were gone exactly from 8:15pm to 9:40pm. I cleaned the whole kitchen, dishes, floor, even the microwave, and some laundry. Did they notice? Barely. Did I feel stupid doing that? Yes. It's like my life is ment to be full of awkwardness. It was fun to spend a short amount of time at home and be able to leave again. I mean, I love those people at home, but I don't have anyone to play with (besides the pregnant lady and her hubby), I always get accused of flirting with the proctor kids, I'm quickly judged by not just my brother but his wife now, and my mother insists on telling me how depressed I am and how I dislike life right now. I think I'm doing pritti good with both depression and anxiety lately. Sheesh. She kinda makes me sad to be there. Learned some embarrassing things that drove me into a panic/depression just as my mother was stating at the moment. If you say it long enough, it'll happen. After learning all that embarrassing stuff from the trip to Louisiana I think I'm extra okay NOT seeing Dallin's friends EVER again. Ferget any crush I've ever had on any of them. The end. I have a four day weekend to go home and I don't know if I want to go back. Death: "The Lord takes many away, even in infancy....they were too pure, too lovely, to live on earth." My explanation of the remark "You were too beautiful for this earth" "They are only absent for a moment. They are in the spirit, and we shall soon meet again." ...if I have no expectation of seeing my father, my mother, my brother, my sister and friends again, my heart would burst in a moment and I shall go down to my grave."