Friday Night We were so totally bored. After school. The usual weekend hang out Driving in his car With no place to go Just listening to music, surrounded by the nice smell of his car and the smooth ride. We dropped off Emi. Went to Logan, to the mall. Walked around. Pointed out hot shirts for him to buy. Got bored...went back to Kirris... Of course I knew he was hungry so I went and go Kirri's 'Dino Nuggets' (chicken nuggets) and we ate those. He burnt himself. :( Really bad. We hung around and I basically fell asleep leaning on his shoulder. I had been complaining about how I had no money but I wanted to go to "Steel Magnolas" (school play) that night. I said it so much he said, "Fine I'll take you!" to shut me up. That's not really what my problem was but hey, a cute guy and a car I could deal with that. So Kirri left to Kaceans house and we stayed at her house. He shoved me out the door b/c I made us late. We went and watched my play. Hiliarious. I miss theatre. I'm going back next year! We came back to Kirris (Kirris is like our safe house) and Kirri hates us for it. She gets mad all the time. I don't blame her. I wish we could do something about it. I've been trying to get him to take me to his house. But it's a flat out "no". I love it when he's blunt and sincere. So cute. We watched TV on the couch with Janet. I forgot how extremely ticklish the child was until I poked his side. I juss said a fact, "as the day go on the uglier I get, well I at least feel that way" and he goes on about how -not- ugly I am. I didn't say I was ugly! I merely said your hair and make up and all seems to die down and you feel uglier than you did that morning. This is true, is it not? I poked him and he jumped a mile high. I kept poking him until he grabbed my wrists and pinned them. That's what Ryker does. It's hotter when a future cop does it. I figgered that wasn't enuff so I kept poking him until he held my hands. *smiles sweetly* Then I was satisfied and stopped tickling him. I'm so evil. He noticed my small and almost constantly cold hands saying "oh my gosh" over and over. And earlier that night he noticed my size 4 (from kids section) shoes. We went home around midnight. I made him 3 minutes late. :D *smiles sweetly* It's such a comfort to know I'm going with him tho. Someone I trust..someone I know, a good friend and I could always tell his father on him if he's not nice to me. Takes all the nerves away....I've never felt this peaceful about my decision on who to date before. Considering I've never really been asked...only like one other time. I feel peace. I can trust this boy. Speaking of trusting boys...Dallas wants me to meet him in the graveyard at 10pm tonight! HA HA! He emailed me. stupid cow. I'll pretend I never check my mail. I have laundry to do. Homework...gotta email and write me bro. Mutti's being a wrouchy girl. I want to go for a ride. Gotta go back to the cemetary and drop off a lil' something. But I shouldn't bug anyone on a Sunday tho. *sighs* I need a nap. I don't wanna do any of it. I want my Autti to come! I will -not- have these emotions all month and I refuse to have them while at the Prom! I'll kill something! Autti come already! Bleeeeddd! Anyways, that was random... I keep having bad thoughts. Bad dreams. Horrible scenes running in my mind. I feel almost depressed. Mutti won't say anything nice about me. Vatti still seems irritated with my communication skills. And they both say I'm getting to attatched to -him-. I was totally attatched to Natalie and I was heart broken when she left but I got over it. Isn't it a part of growing up? Attatched...is she telling me not to love anyone, like my Vati? Is it wrong to hang out with a guy friend every weekend? I'm so confused...what am I doing wrong? I think I'll go to ward ski night. I'm gonna go for a ride. __________________________________________ Oh OH! Did I tell you?! It was the hottest thing ever. I was talkin' to Kacean the other day and he came up behind me and grabbed my wrists and twisted them behind my back like he was handcuffing me. Haha future cop. It was soo hot. I'm strange, I know. But he like asked if it hurt and I said no juss so he wouldn't let go and he didn't. Kacean took the snickers candy bar from my hand and said she'd make me eat it. I said no and he said "okay, I'll hold her and you shove it in" so he held me while Kacean literally shoved this whole candy bar into my mouth. He was like in shock there for a minute saying, "I didn't think she'd really do it!" She pressed on my teeth and I juss got my fake tooth in so I turned away kinda fast so it wouldn't hurt too bad. I dropped my backpack and tripped over it but I couldn't catch myself b/c he had my hands behind my back. So he caught me and I fought with the candy bar. I was kinda mad at Kacean. I told her we'd have a fight afterschool. I love it when guys randomly do stuff like that...even call ya names like Nate says "hey girl" sometimes. After school in the middle of the main hall Kacean and I duked it out. It was funny. Garrick came by and I knocked his Root beer out of his hands on accident and it exploded in the middle of the hall! I was so embarrassed I couldn't stop laughing tho! Garrick was so mad! We moved down the hall by the Audit and piled our stuff in the middle of the hall until we decided what to do that Friday night. But it was that morning that kept me on a high all day....*sighs*