Okay, I can't be an all bad person.

I'm sure every parent or spouse says this at one time or another!

When you see an advertisment for some ice cream treat, or shake or smoothie, or whatever and you think to yourself "I'm going to go get me one of those when the kids are in school" or "I'm going to get this when at lunch so I don't have to share with the hubby".

It is slightly strange that a) I dont have kids and b) dont have a hubby, but still....

When yer bf downs everything in sight and it only takes him 2 minutes verses your savory 5 minutes or more, yeah, you feel sometimes you wish not to share with him esp if its things you know he likes a lot.

My boy is stuck on ice cream. ALWAYS ice cream of some kind. I've been trying to get frozen yogurt for months now, but nooo it has to be ice cream. So when I want some ice cream treat and to actually have some and enjoy it in more than two minutes, I have to go get it when I'm by myself.

Sometimes I think this is wrong to think such things so often.

He doesn't buy his own food, at least no long term food, a galloon of ice cream is gone in a day or two, if that, and he doesn't buy actual...food for meals. He just eats junk food all the time. So when he comes over to my house, which has food, he eats a little real food and then goes straight for my ice cream that yes, actually takes me weeks to eat cuz I savor it and eat it sparingly.

And another thought:

If you have ever had the experience of taking kids shopping and hearing them all whine and want to eat or go home or play video games while you are trying to find something to eat for breakfast or trying to find some device for your phone, you will understand my feelings.....

Except, those feelings run along the lines of an adult male behaving the same way as I am trying to shop in a store. The attention span is the same.

For a boyfriend that wants to spend so much time with you, blah blah and volunteers to go to the store with you almost every single time (they never learn), YOU sure end up regretting the whole 'spending time together' thing. So you end up being the bad guy by telling them NO I'm going shopping alone damnit and its going to be enjoyable and I won't hear any whining and I will shop as long as I want damnit!

I just had one of those blissful moments of being able to wander through a store and just pick up and try on and purchase anything I want for longer than 30 minutes. Its not exactly healthy for the paycheck, but I'll take the finanical nagging. It sure beats the hell out of the nagging and whining kids/boyfriend constantly for 30 minutes. The finanical is quieter and doesn't come back to bite cha until later.

I always understood Mindys need to go food shopping or whatever alone cuz the kids gets bored of it, but I didn't think the hubbies/boyfriends were the same way! Its ridiculous. Instead of marrying an adult you just added to your pile of kids that 'need to be taken care of'.

Is it so hard to ask for and GET an equal partner in this life?

I guess thas the real reason/question plaguing me currently, thus the giant complaint.

And thus, marriage doesn't look so appealing at this point in life. Nor do children.

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Just browsing the online news at KSL and noticed this caption:

"Researcher claims that the more intelligent a woman is, the less likely she is to want children"

Now, lets think about this. This could be a very controversy subject and somewhat insulting.

Given my most recent statement of my lack of desire to have children, does that make me intelligent? More intelligent than those who want children?

And those that are married and have kids, both young and older, are they stupider than I?

Do more intelligent women see the change and difficulties they might face with children BEFORE they make the decision? Or is it simply a biological desire and its natural to be "stupid" and want children?

"If any value is deeply evolutionarily familiar, it is reproductive success. If any value is truly unnatural, if there is one thing that humans (and all other species in nature) are decisively not designed for, it is voluntary childlessness,” he wrote in his book. “All living organisms in nature, including humans, are evolutionarily designed to reproduce. Reproductive success is the ultimate end of all biological existence." -Kanazawa

And the other issue addressed in the article is even some of the smart woman who want children have a hard time "finding a worthwhile partner". Ah ha! As in not marrying a baby yourself, in my opinion. After a woman accomplishes all they have in their life and career its hard to find a guy that has accomplished the same amount or is not intimidated or (needy) dependent by/on your success.

Women maybe mistakenly feel a man should put as much effort into life and career as they did in theirs, women maybe feel man and woman could be equal in this effort and ambition and therefore they would have the same effort and ambition in marriage or rearing children.

And all this time I thought I was scared of having children. Maybe I'm not scared of having the children. Maybe I'm more scared of getting married and marrying a child who has not made the effort in life as I have and therefore lack the effort in marriage and rearing children. Ha, sounds like I'm just scared of reality and the inevitable. Who knew.

Alright alright I'll try not to be THAT negative. But still, there is truth to this ladies! You know it! I should give some men the benefit of the doubt. I'm sure there are a ...few good guys out there. They are just getting harder to find these days.....