My Bday

I was pritti today.

I made myself.

I put pink ribbons in my hair and wore my sexy white shirt with the pink on the sleeve and some sexy jeans. hehe

It was funny, Cooley like grabs my hair with all the bows in it and says how much she likes it as she's pulling it.

After young womens Aubree and I were talking. I told her about the upside down kiss. She said it was weird thinking of me kissing. She hit me and called me a scoundrawl. or something like that. I laughed so hard. Kirri would say, 'Ya hoochie!'. I asked her what I should do for the rest of my 17th Bday and she said I should totally go make out with my boyfriend. haha.. Not a bad idea eh? Never had a b/f on my Bday before...

She said she wanted to see me kiss him. She wanted to take a picture. She said if I wouldn't do it for my Bday then I hadda do it for her Bday present. haha She started talking about hot boys and so it juss made me want Derek more. So I wanted to jump in the truck and go see Derek. I told her she could come with and hide behind a bush or something and take a pic of us kissing and I'd totally kiss him.

We got my ditigal camera and jumped in the truck. We went to his house and we planned on putting her behind the fence. So I went to knock on his side door and he came rushing out, scared the crap outta him. I pulled him outside and he closed the door. Aubree pops up with the camera sitting on the fence and we both stare at her for a moment b/c it was really obvious. I grabbed his face and pulled him down and kissed him until I saw Aubree's flash. haha. It was kinda funny. Not secret at all. She's so cute. She doesn't get all fussy about him like Kirri does so it was a nice change. I couldn't stop laughing. After she's like, "Well, you weren't totally all over him but that was a good enuff present." Honestly! That girl!

I wrote Derek a love note in 2nd hour.

I wrote: "Your hugs and kisses are like stars, they light up my life when things get dark." Then I drew a star and wrote, "You're my shooting star" and then I put lyrics to songs in it. "Why was Derek holding her hand when he's supposed to be minnneee?1" And of course, I had to sign it. Love, me. Ok. I love ya, buh bye! And -The Ugly Duckling. teehee... I planted it in his locker so he'd get it after 3rd hour before he saw me.

I came home and juss a lil' bit ago I went downstairs to put all my crap away. And on my bed after I silly stringed my whole room, was a care bear with flowers and a note that said my name in that chicken scratch called writing. Of course we know who it's from. I mean I'm not really one for accepting gifts and compliments...It's really hard for me...

But everything there on the bed...was...PINK. I'm not saying I HATE pink or DESPISE it...it's juss I don't like it very much. And everything was pink.

Pink flowers.

Pink Care Bear (of all the care bears out there??)

And a pink braclet on the care bear

After reading the note he left (that wasn't pink!) Urim and Thumuin to read his writing..."Happy Birthday Sara! Yes, I spent money on you, but the little bear wanted me to buy it for you I just couldn't resist. The flowers and braclet were his ideas. -Love, Derek"

AAaaaaawwwww

But suddenly I'm about to really hate this bear for the pink suggestion...

But I must be...happy and have a positive...attitude about it. And accept it all. And admitt that I actually like it, even tho it's all pink. And I'll be grateful for his effort. And....*grinds her teeth* This so hardddd....I'm such a pansy. This is why I hate my bday so much.

So now here I am....staring at it all...and asking..."What do I do with it now?"

What do I do with the flowers?

When do I wear the pink braclet? Do I hafta wear it? Will he notice and get offended if I dont?

Where do I put this Care Bear? It's kinda creepin' me out..

A few minutes later Mutti comes down with a vase full of water and scowls, "I hate it when you let things die." *blinks* So now my flowers are in a vase...on my vanity...so you juss...leave them there? This is so weird.

I made Mutti explain everything to me. She said he wanted to get me out of the house at 9 so he could bring it over. I came in 10 to 9 and said I was going to Derek house (so Aubree could take a pic) so they gave me money and told me to go to the store to get me out of the way. But I was going to go to the store -after- going to Dereks. They called Derek to warn him I was coming. Which is why he was so 'scared' when he opened the door and I was there. Then he said he'd meet me at Aubrees and go to Lee's with me b/c he needed to go also. He said he needed to get gas so he'd meet me at Lee's. So I went to Lee's and he bolted to my house and then to Lee's. I don't think he got gas or got what he 'needed' at Lee's. The guy in front of us had bought flowers and I laughed and said, "He musta done something wrong if he's getting flowers" and he kinda cringed and laughed nervously. I know why now. I can't even count all the lies he told me tonight juss so he could do that! teehee..That's his first 'surprise' on me. To tell ya the truth, all the lying stuff really kinda hurt me. Even if it was for a ...'good' cause. I couldn't stop thinking about it for the next couple days.

Afterwards I jumped in his car with him and went for a ride. I sang, I pretended to cry b/c I was scared with his driving b/c he didn't have his glasses on, it was dark, raining and his wipers stopped working. Yeah, scary. He kept like grinding his teeth and whisper yelling "Just quit it!" teehee...He was being blunt and told me to shut up. Cute. Then at his house he went inside for a sec and I jumped out of his car and ran down the street in the rain. He came back out and couldn't find me. He was scared, jumped in his car and drove around looking for me. I was standing in the intersection there by the cementary watching him. He didn't see me. He turned around near the intersection and went back, he drove up to the cementary and then he drove to my house and asked me Mutti where I was. haha I was standing there in the rain, wet hair, in the middle of the street the whole time. I saw him go to my house so I chased after him until I couldn't run anymore. I waited for him to come back. He came back up the street and found me. He seemed to drive angerily. He slammed on his brakes skidding on the dirt and whipping around and slamming on his brakes again by me. The door opens the first thing I hear is my name in that whiny voice he has. I thought he was angry. *shrugs* He kept telling me I scared the crap out of him. awww made me feel special. He shoved me in his car and took me home.

We got to my house and he attempted to get me out of his car ASAP. I didn't wanna go. I refused. So of course he hadda make out me like totally to be able to get me to get out of his car. He kept telling me bluntly that I had to leave and he had to also. haha He attempted to pull me out of the car and I said NOoo I like this song! from the radio. He wouldn't let me go so I juss HAD to kiss him! Again....and again....so he'd let me stay with him juss a lil' bit longer. Sorry I hadda take Aubree's suggestion....

But after that he quickly got rid of me...I don't know what his hurry was sheesh. It was obvious he wanted to get rid of me.

Yeah, that's when I discovered the pink stuff on my bed. So...what do you do at school morrow? Talk about it? Ask about it? Pretend it didn't happen? Don't mention it? Thank him? Make out with him to let him know? lol....I'm so confuseddd...

Why do I hafta be the messed up one when it comes to relationships. Last night was the first time he actually called himself my boyfriend....it was soo weird!

Anyways.....great ending to my Bday....having my b/f yank me out of his car and shove me inside my house and run away as fast as he could. Then discover pink stuff in my room. Feeling awkward about receiving stuff. So now I'm simply uncomfortable and disappointed. Sheesh. Nothing too unusual happened today. Kind of a bland day with an unusual twist to the end of it, thas all.

I'm moving up in the world tho.

"Oh, Happy Bday! You're turning 16?!"

"No..."

"Oh..15?"

"Um...wrong way! I'm 17"

*about five minutes later*

"Oohhh! So you're a Junior!?"

"Oy vay.."

So ppl at least know I've made it to 16... a plus for me. Yeah yeah yeah I know I look 15 and like a sophy but sheesh.

Yay for me!

Dancing Queen at Seventeen!