Memories Last night was a blast! Allison almost started crying, well, okay she did a lil' bit. We were all trying hard not to cry b/c it would mess up our make up but we couldn't help it. The directors came in during relaxation and made their comments to us. Kody almost started crying *gasp* Amy was already crying, no surprise. Nan Wharton being the tough girl she is, actually she was stressed and didn't really say things of the heart too much. But then I learned that Cauldwell really does have feelings! He got kind of that hush voice...the quiet whisper and told us things of the heart. It was amazing. I wanted to cry. *shrugs* I wanted to cry a lot of times and I knew if I didn't then than I wouldn't ever cry. But I kept it in and shure nuff now it wont come out. It was the thought of crying that counts right? Why am I such a bawl baby. Tarens over there, "I'm not the crying type of person." grr... It was horrible tho! The compy crashed juss as we started the show so we didn't have any music for the intro! So the cat jumped out and they stood there frozen for awhile until he started juss saying his lines hoping the music would come on. Yes, -everyone- almost had a heart attack until Cauldwell came on the mic and said we'd start the show over. Ruin the whole jump out of the hole bit. *shrugs* It was sooo scary. Talk about anxiety attack at the wrong moment. You never want to re-start a show...but we had to. Otherwise we'd juss keep going as if nothing happened. They said that Nate and JB got off the stage in a nice graceful (professional) manner to restart the show. I wonder what that looked like as Nate climbed back in his hole...and JoJo casually walked off into the Vom again. hehehe... But after that and we all started singing it picked things up again. I saw Roxy there. I dont think she cares or likes me. *shrugs* Before the show Katie O's lil' sista went around passing out single red roses to -everyone- in the cast. I stood right by the door so she wouldnt/couldn't forget me. But...she did. I didn't wanna follow her around and say she forgot me juss so I could get a flower. I was desparate but I didn't want to look/feel stupid. So I juss...gave up. I watched her go around to everyone else and hand them to random ppl in the hall even the stage crew got some and the boys. But not me.*shrugs* It was sad. I wanted to cry. Now there's a really good reason why I bought my own rose, I guess. *tear* Ya know, maybe it's gettin kinda obvious that maybe, juss maybe, I don't deserve getting a flower? Btw, when I said a flower, I did forget to mention that Kirri gave me one! On Thursday night I believe! I do appreicate that! I love her homemade gifts! We cleaned up until midnight ish. Mutti came to get me and then I forgot my stash of candy and juss had to go back for it. Then I mandered over to the boys house and tapped on the window and he came out. I felt bad, he was in bed, in PJ's and changed and came up in the freezing cold. Then of course, the heavy make out session. :D *shrugs* Then I came home, did homework and talked to Mutti until around 2 in the morning. Woke up about 4 hours later and here I am. In first hour we watched the video the boys made when they woke Wharton up at 1:30 on Friday night to sing "Pebbles at your window" to her. It was a long but catchy song. It was funny. I laughed. I get to go see Terry today. *shrugs* I'm slightly on the uppidy side of life now. yay. How long will this last now? Stupid Perkes! "I explained it on the board and told you how to do it." Well, Perkes, maybe, if you think about it ...you might suck at explaining things?! Or I wonder if its possible that just because you explained it on the board that one still might not understand? Ever thought about not calling those people stupid? Sad times are over. Happy times are over. Memories have been made. Life moves on. There's more to come.