Well today is going to be sweet. I can tell. I started my monthly 'curse' today and could not for the life of me find any feminine napkins on campus anywhere. I even tried the HEALTH CENTER, but no..contrary to what I believe the Health Center apparently provides no assistance unless you are pregnant. Well as for Pat, I don't know. I found him slightly attractive to begin with and now I just think he's a little to egotistical. Plus, he goes tanning. If a man goes tanning there can only be two reasons why. And I don't want to think about either reason right now. I promised myself I would never be interested in a guy who went tanning, so I guess Pat is out of the picture. Well unless he acts a little better, than maybe I'll consider giving him my attention. Who am I kidding right? The main reason why I am beginning to not like him is because he shows no intererst in me. I feel deprived of love. I don't know why I get these small horrible fixiations on certain people. I don't know anything anymore. Talked to a good friend last night. Long time. Talked about death. John dying. Where to live. What we ate. How our diets are going (mine is excellent). Porn. Readable porn. Pussy piercings. How my friend is a self labeled 'nympho.' The car wreck. My feelings towards everything. Her pain killers. Being stoned. Basically we covered it all. Which was nice. I miss her being around a lot. We have seperate classes this semester and it sucks royally. I wish I was home. I wish I was high. I wish I was sleeping. I wish I was far, far away. I wish. I'm done.