but hasnt mentioned it. no call. no text. no anything. no nothing. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SCREAM RIGHT. ABOUT. NOW. feel. free. to. scream. right. about. now. im hoping i invested trust into the right person. but everything is saying NO. HUGE MISTAKE. BIG MISTAKE. ENORMOUS MISTAKE. and deep down i knew it all along. right to the bone. the core. i knew it all along. nothing is going right. i am amandas complete lack of surprise. am. amandas. complete. lack. of. surprise. murphys law. and its always right. even when its wrong. i can feel the numbness of my entire life covering my all. smothering it. su.ff.o.cating. he better come through. he better show up. he better. please. -------------------------------------- i called out today. cant do that again. it was a fun day though. nice to play hookie. but i cant let this job down. its all i have right now. all i fucking have. ill get a small lecture from roberto but i can handle him. besides one time in 4 weeks. one damn day. after all of the coming in earlys. and the staying laters. and the effort. ========================================= joe. i need you. please. dont. screw. me. up. anymore. please. ----------------------- i need a hug.