i want to know why. it all gets messed up so quickly. so easily. it isnt easy being so sleazy. so dirty and down and out rotten. life is too much pressure. always building. always mounting. and i just want to sleep. to find a nice corner. a nice corner. to just curl up and sleep. to just fall asleep. and let it all rest awhile. just for a while. a moment. im just so tired of it all. im tired of hurting. im tired of needing. im tired of being. i hope it gets better. because. i cant take much more of worse.