I talked to Pat today. Mister P as he's come to be known to me. We joked, insulted, and laughed like usual. He sends mixed messages. I am done trying to figure him out. I am done waiting for him to acknowledge me as someone he is interested in. We got out of class early today. I am bored already. I have time to kill. Lots of it. Lots. Minutes feel like an eternity when I have to wait between classes. The temptation of leaving early is almost unbearable. I have two more classes left. I have 5 exams Monday. 5 of which I will probably fail. Than Spring Break. My shining hope for relaxation. Meditation. I am letting things happen. I am letting them come and go. I am letting it all go easily. I don't want to waste my life worrying about others. My new dream: I shall sit on a busy street. The summer heat surrounding me like a melody. I shall sell paintings. I shall sit and watch the strangers pass by. I will do this. I will enjoy my summer days the way I want too. Sitting, patiently, reading a book maybe. Attempting to salvage all that I have left. People shall pass me. I will wait. I will smile. I will sell. I will try. You cannot get anywhere in this world unless you put yourself out there and sell what you have. Today is going rather quickly. Not as quickly as I'd like, but good enough. I feel like skipping my other classes. Retiring early on this Friday. I have a wedding dress to order. A brides maid dress. I don't like dresses. It's for my good friend's wedding. So I guess. I have no choice. I will order today. I have too. Weddings. Summer parties. Working. Income. Selling original art works. Summer streets. Heat. Sweating. Smiling. Dreaming. I am done for now.