i like. the night time. riding in the back seat. the window. rolled down. letting in the air. the night air. i like. being high. some times. to kill the unhappy thrill. racing through my heart. i like to hide. behind. my wall. of highness. and the smoke. i like the smoke in my eyes. hiding all of my past lies. and lost crimes. and i like. it. all. so. very. much. my heart. holds it tight. and just for a hit. i will lie. and cheat. and steal. and relax. and rationalize my choices. and spend my money. easily. appealingly. don't believe. all you don't see. i like the feeling. the music pumping into my back. shaking my shaky ribs. pulsating through my dead body. my rotting heart. beating. living. pushing. me. into. life. being reborn. is like being ripped. and torn. i like it. all. i will not lie. i hold it close. and would probably die. with. out. it. and that shit. heart warming feelings. my addictions are infectious. burning. piercing. and lovely. all the same. there are no rules. in this. horrible. game. shamefully. i love it all. honestly. i love it all. utterly. i love it all. completely. i. love. it. all. loud speakers. and a leaf of good luck. getting by. before i die.