It doesn't matter anymore whether or not anyone ever notices me. I've been wasting precious time on worthless things. I had a great day yesterday. It was fun. And today it reminded me of why I like life. Not for the guys. Or the drinking. Or smoking. But for the living. SEB is a good person. J seems like a good person as well. Hmm. The only thing that disturbed me as of late, has been my dreams. One dream I hurt someone I loved and was hiding from a gang who wanted to kill M because she started a gang fight. Weird. Second dream my home was taken hostage by The Rock and his shot gun. We had apparently had some weird threesome thing and he got angry about it ending. Definitely weird, if not a little perturbing. Neither dream had an ending. Hopefully tonight when I lay my head down they don't continue. I don't even like The Rock. And I've never, ever been in a gang. Creepy. Well I'm off to eat breakfast and maybe go for a bike ride. Gotta shed these pounds. Done for now.