i assume sarah seen my email. she must not be happy. ive yet to hear or read or see anything from her. danielle wont be happy either. once she finds out. i am selling the trailer for what i owe. and it will sell hopefully. and they wont mind the furniture or whatever i left behind. and i left behind our old kitchen table. and our old dynamite table. and im sorry mom. i am. for losing all those things you loved. but. what is material. when there isnt anything real. well. im not really sorry i sent that email to sarah. shes a rude little brat. and im tired of feeling left out. and im sure now we wont talk at all. and. im fine with that. ill figure something out. one way or another. either leave and go home. leave and go somewhere else. or try to stay by any means necessary. and ill be fine. i dont like sarah anymore. and there is no friendship to lose. because. it was and has been gone since i got here. so fuck her too. i am tired of worrying about people and things and places and such. fuck it all.