[sleepy] Well here I am. sitting here. typing. Doing nothing meaningful once again. Saturday's are boring. to me. there's no good cartoons on anymore. It's depressing. Last night I went and seen Dani and Angel. They are progressing along nicely. For the most part. My stomach is tied in knots right now. Tight little knots. Pinching. Twisting. I don't know why. Maybe because of the same old reason. Which I won't discuss. I feel guilty 95% of the time. for nothing at all. My nerves are upset and shaky. like usual. I feel like moving. running. away. Going to New York City and seeing the sky line at night. Maybe Las Vegas and start some gambling addiction. California and witness the beauty of the ocean. Honolulu to rest and settle my bones. I'd like to learn how to surf. 3 months until I'm done with college. I don't know what to think about that. So I won't think about it. I'd like to be anywhere that wasn't here right now. My writing is boring lately. I think I'll go and concentrate on something. DFN.