friday night home inside. finally. i cant say i mind. ive spent enough nights out on this town to account for a good million weekends in and at home. work today was typical. boring. fun. passed by unknowingly. relaxing i guess. in a few weird ways. i havent been drunk drunk since sunday. and i dont plan on being drunk again. i gave the go ahead that if i go in drunk again i get the fire just like last time. ill regain my reputation. not that either place has given me much flack about it. they joke about it. and one boss either pretends not to notice or just really hasnt noticed. either way. no more playing. the jokes fine. but nothing to back them up is best. im hyped up on some blow i scored from drew. as is the usual. its all good though. ive got a downer so i should be alright. and despite my craziness before i think itll be a quiet night. fortunately. and. unfortunately. its hot in the house but im rather tense about opening the windows and doors. ive still got the spook. i dont know where im headed. and i dont think i want to know. maybe a bit. but as long as it ends okay then ill be fine. i do not plan on working at these jobs for long though. just long enough to buckle down. stay sober a bit longer. and build up my esteem. you are what you believe you are. nothing more. nothing less. i want to build on the skill of others liking me. enjoying me. its a talent im becoming more aware of day to day. in general most people like me. for one dumbass reason or another. i dont know. enough patting myself on the back. my feet stink. stupid work slash play shoes. i need new ones but itll have to wait. i guess ill just have to deodorize those mofos or something. its too hot to concentrate i think ill go become a tv zombie for uno momento.