23 more days until my official Birthday. So continuing on. Yesterday was my first 'all sober' day. It kind of sucked. I miss that feeling. I miss feeling out of control and happy. I'll get over it I guess. If only I had some weed. Something. Anything. I'd take tylenol right now. So not much is going on. Not much is ever going on for me. SEB called last night. We talked about the same old lame issues. Her working. Her J. Her and her. On and on. She's kind of annoying me lately. Not intentionally I'm sure. But still. Maybe it's because she's made all these plans and hasn't even bothered to ask if I'd like to participate. It's always like this once a friend finds a new boyfriend. Or a new guyt o pay attention to them. Oh well. Maybe I'll avoid her for a little while. So let's see. Nothing else to report. I'm bored. Really, truly bored. But there's nothing new with that. I've been having really wicked nightmares lately. Weird ones. That usually involve wire and speeding cars. I don't know. I wish I could go out Wednesday night. Not with SEB though. If only I had more friends. I need to make more for sure. Well we're off to go shopping for more healthy food. I hope we find some. I've officially lost my first 20 lb goal. Now I just need to concentrate on 20 more. Damn I'm a fat cow. Moo, I say, moo. Done for now.