Men suck. Today has been the usual up and down day for me. Not much has gone on or happened. I spoke to P today. For awhile. He walked me to my next class. I again wanted to strangle him. I'm trying to get over the crush. The less interested I act. The more he comes around. We talked about the usual stuff. He mentioned how Bree weirds him out. That made me feel kind of happy. Knowing that he might not be interested in her. It's sad. I need to get over this dude. I will once the semester ends and I won't see him again. That's kind of sad too, not seeing him again, but I'll get over it easier. I haven't spoken to K for awhile now. I'm sure by now he's avoiding me. Why? Who knows. Probably because SEB has a nasty habit of repeating the things I tell her. I won't do that again. Girls get so retarded over guys. Well some girls. I just suffer. SEB chases them down like prey. Oh well. I'm not really concerned with K. I never was. I'm more concerned with P and trying to get over him. I wish he liked me back. I wish he was as interested. I wish. I wish. Damn guys for making us feel this way. Damn guys for not making sense. And damn P for being the way he is. It's not his looks I like so much, although he is quite attractive, it's his personality over it all. He makes me laugh. He also knows how to make an ass out of himself. Damn the guys I meet for not all adding up to my perfect love. If I could take a quality from each of them and squish them all together, I'd finally have my soul mate. I'm letting it go though. Maybe once I'm thin and more attractive I'll get my way. It sucks being a chunky girl with a great personality. Ugh. I'm done. Done for now.