"From this we grow...learn, and survive." LIFE. I'm fine. Happy if not content. This is how it was meant. FATE. Whether it comes sooner. Or it shows up late. Everything will be fine. Simply sweet. Simply mine. I'm fine now. I've realized that I will be quitting this job soon. Sorry. I apologize for being a lazy slacker. But what can I do? I can't fight my nature. My way. I won't try and deny it. That I hate working. But there's an upside to this. I just need another line of work. Away from people. Hidden in the back somewhere. Stocking shelves. Or talking to myself. Either way. So anyways. My mind and heart are still on PRD. Beating that crush through my weak veins like rat poison. An infection there is no cure for. A virus of love. I won't go on about it. Or ramble. I'll feel it. And let it go. I'm enlightened tonight. Feeling closer to the philosophy I speak of so much. I'm trying hard to get back to my old WAYS. My old THOUGHTS. And such. It isn't easy. Going back. Re-winding time, mentally and emotionally. But I'm sure this is all happening one reason or another. We ordered out tonight. PIzza and Wings. I have to call Dani. And I will. Soon. I think I may even go visit. MOmentarily. I think I'll go now. I'm tired of thinking. And typing. My fingers are cramping up. *CRAMP* "Be not who they want you to be...be who you are." DFN.