so i guess our frienship has somewhere somehow ended. right before my eyes. ive already tried to apologize. and its crumbled. fallen down. and apart. now im left standing here in the middle. of the big room all alone. it wasnt the insults. it was the bitterness. before i knew it. it grew into a completely unrecognizable mess. again and again. and on into the nights i confess. i shouldve known better then to lay down and rest. and i know i fucked it up by being a total mess. im a fucked up girl. alone in a fucked up world. there are no excuses. for all my mistakes. ive lost a good friend this time. its never been like this before. and i feel so bad all over again. but i know i cant fix it. so i need to go ahead kick this. time to run away. one more time. the second time. leading into another time. it cant all be my fault all of the time.