i dont do sad very well anymore. back in the days of youth i could hold onto depression like a nice comfy blanket. for however long i felt. like. now. in the older days. i cant. i dont do sad well at all. before i had it perfected. now i just get happier and wreck it. but. its all okay. im fine. i still have drinking to give up. debt up to my chin to take care of. and finding a new job to do. but im aight. ill make it through tonight and onto tomorrow. and minus the pain and withdraw just a little bit of the sorrow. ----------------------- things come and things go and as long as you remember them youll always know that its more silver then gold. the tall boy is slowly drifting away. and im happier. because i hate useless emotions. useless crushes. and such. its all jesus. maybe? ------------------------------------- who knows what will become of me. who knows where ill be in a month or two. who knows. not me. not i. not anyone. its all in the hands of the universe. and in my own hands as well. i make my own choices and make my destiny happen. its all on my back. and im fine with that. whatever will be will be. nothing more. nothing less. and ill just have to wait and see. what the world holds for me. aww. so yea. im good. yo. and i know what i plan on trying to do.