here i come. and go. im leaving town. finally. FINALLY. well i think i am. rey finally got fed up and kicked me out. finally. its all so final. im tired of this city. im tired of all of the people i know here. AB-SO-LUTE-LY. all of them. whine. bitch. moan. and judge my life? judge me? for getting fired? for getting anything? fuck YOU. and you. and you. FA-UCK Y-OU. kids younger then me acting so pretentious. so pieous. preachy. and pathetic. always this. always that. even my best friend doesnt really hear me. listen to me. pretends too. tries too. maybe even wants too. but. doesnt. intterupts. gets angry. so negative. and. so fake. always with the ONENESS my ass. and im too passive. trust me i know. i absolutely know i let everyone do what they want and come right back to me. why? how in the hell do i know why? or maybe i do actually. its all because of this heart break. ache. pain. whatever. ive been seeking a way out. and. now. ive got it. and. i dont want to let it go. i want to cradle it and hang tightly onto it. being homeless is never fun. but. ive seen worse. ive been there. a bit. whats one more go around. im not saying anything to anyone. im buying my bus ticket and heading to california. its due time for a new adventure. old. injured. tired. but. goddamnit i need this. awake. release. go go go go go go go. and. with no goodbyes. just leaving. out of the clear blue sky. GONE. and never hopefully looking back. im drinking my last drink here. smoking my last whatever. and well. snorting ill never really give up. if anything i wish i could afford enough coke to take with me. but. leaving on 330 and after the ticket 230 is not coke buying time. that i at least accept. i have to call home before i head out. i have to talk to them in case i never really do make it back. I HAVE EXACTLY 20SOME DAYS BEFORE IM DUE OUT. GONE. AND DONE. i wont be telling anyone i know anything. because i dont care too. ive come. ive stayed. ive had fun. not so much fun. gotten fired. quit. lied. cheated. gambled. met some really great people. scared off some really great people. and now. its time for change. i cant change somewhere im already known so well. GOODBYE KIDS. its been almost kinda fun most of the time. goodluck.