until. the end. the way out. i know where the EXIT is. i've seen the sign. i just can't seem to. find. the door. although i get. close. some times. so close. i can taste it. feel it. touch it. heavy in the air. i can sense it. where it be hiding. i just need to make it. to open it. WIDE. and step inside. and out into. the new way. i have a brighter beginning and a dull. lonely past. i can do this. if i can do this. if i can. open that damned door. getting by. is getting dry. and old. and tired. and lonely. and more restless. i need to stop i guess. for now. i need to regain my ground. for now. i need a little more sleep. and a little less high. for now. i need a new reason to live. for now. i need to change this situation. for now. i need. it all. for now. to just. lighten up. and relax. and take. a nice. break. i need a new identity.