maybe. gorge will be my little soul mate. for a moment or two. or three. and tomorrow i go to look at the house. the room. the things. there. and. decide if i can stay there. and. the bright side is. in one trip ill be moved. i own nothing. and. nothing owns me. of. course. now. it. seems. like. a. burden. has. died. one way or another. i dont like hoping too much these days. because. i know better. then. hope. i know better. then. to. hope. or. wish. because. life doesnt work that way. it wont tomorrow. and it wont today. i would just like a place to live so i dont have to head back now. because. thats the only thing ill regret. is the going back. and. maybe if im nice to gorge and his boytoy. maybe. theyll let me stay. maybe. id like to think thats a possibility. gorge seems alright. he seems nice. and. friendly. and. strange enough to last. so maybe. is all i can say. and. after i see the room. and such. tomorrow. ill. know. more. it would be nice. to. not. have to leave.