"True Love Waits" I just read that on a token. It was on the counter at the store. I didn't see it at first, but than there it was. Waiting to be read by some fate-ologist like myself. (Sucker) I've been having a million brain storms since this weekend started. One right after another. Story after story. Picture after picture. Maybe my muse has returned. Maybe inspiration wasn't so far off afterall. Maybe it was all just waiting for my mind to pay accurate attention. I have to follow this now. I have to go with my feelings. My intuition. Something's waiting. Creeping closer as each day passes. I'm not sure what it is yet, but I feel it. CHANGE. Something new. Hopefully something nice. I need to focus on my diet more. On my whole 'thin-ness' thing. I will weigh 110 by graduation. I need to focus more. *What I ate today* Breakfast / Lunch: Ham/Cheese McMuffin (home made) Dinner: 2 to 3 pieces of thinly breaded chicken (also home made) Well none of that seems to bad. It's not the food that's really getting me down, it's the lack of exercise and energy to exercise. I am going to work on that though. I'm going to go to the gym every Tuesday and Thursday. Probably before classes, but maybe during my hour and 45 minute break. I don't have anything else to do. Not really. Pat doesn't stick around. SEB isn't going to be there to talk too. So I guess this is how it is. Well I'm not thinking about anything else right now. Just on getting thin and beautiful. Well more beautiful, if that's even possible. (Things To Focus On) 1. Personality (Need to get happier) 2. School work (Must definitely focus) 3. Weight loss (Need to eat less, move more) 4. Hair (Just because) 5. Skin (Eliminate breakouts) 6. Find a job (No one has hired me as of yet) 7. Save money 8. Work on writing / drawing / painting 9. Going out more (Just because again) And last but certainly not least: 10. Being a better person all together Well I think that list covers everything I'm worrying about lately. SEB still isn't calling me as much and I'm beginning to wonder if this friendship will indeed last. She seems to be dissing me and it's starting to piss me off a little. Not exactly piss me off, but tickle that little itch of mine that controls my 'coldness' towards others. (Nevermind) I think I'll go and find something to do now. I don't have much else to add. "Spiritus Mundi..." DFN