i.dont.believe.in.popular.trends. but. i do believe everyone should own a copy of the new gorillaz cd. DEMON DAYS. because. it arouses a nice feeling. --------------- to be an artist. one must. learn. i suppose. thats what they say anyway. but. i dont want to learn to be an artist. because. i dont need to learn how to be myself. --------------- the pressure. comes. and goes. and. i fear it all falling apart. one.day. when im not looking. it will shatter again. the glass splinters of my life will once again be sent flying across the open frightening sky. and. ill again be left alone. all on my own. to handle all the trouble that will come and go. and. thats my fear. but. i know. already that there is nothing to really fear. for. ive already lost what i could lose. and. now anything else. is trash i can easily dispose of. pack.light.for.the.journey.of.life. because. your shoes wont save you. your couch cant save you. your designer jeans wont bother to save you. and. all those things you collect dont know how to save you. own.only.yourself. and. it all will be much easier. when the time comes. gently release those things that need to be released. because. death wont stop for a new tshirt. ---------------------- in my heaven. marcella and i would watch repeat episodes of law&order. judge judy. and. monk. i would listen to her talk about her past. again.and.again. she would drink a few beers. i would smoke a bit of dope. we would argue lightly. and. i would hold her during the thunderstorms. without question. without pause. without anger. we would eat nachos. spaghetti. pork&sauerkraut. and. cake. she would laugh. i would laugh. we would sleep easily in the comfort of being home. with one another. and. close. take nothing so close for granted. for when it leaves. its gone forever. and. wishes dont work.