its weird. but i think ive grown tired of bothering people. i think my. well one of my absolutely worst habits is slowly moving on and away. i feel weird. different. but. sort of like the me before. and i dont like it very much. and i need to find a way out. i will not falter. i will not. i refuse. im not sad. but im not feeling so light anymore. im feeling recognized and known. im feeling accepted and comfortable. im feeling a bit restless. because i feel if i could leave to see vegas. then i can leave to see anywhere else. its all a matter of money. and figuring things out. i suppose i could hit out and about and save a bit and skip town. just for the hell of it. i think id only tell jorge. because hes the only one i really like. jorge and mandy. and erick. and. no. maybe just jorge. i feel too settled. i need to be unsettled. i need to be shaken awake. i need to be shoved back into life. without any preparation. nor warning.