up today. earlier then i should be. but. i cant keep my eyes closed any longer. no longer. no sleep longer. i found smoke last night. walking home from work and stopping by the ampm for my usual bottle of maddog 2020. he said why are you drinking tonight. and i said because tomorrow i dont work. he said well in that case youll need some weed. i got sacs. and i said get outta here. and smiled and needed. and he said come back and see me once you drink some of that maddog. and i didnt even make it home. barely over the hill i turned back. and got the get to get by. amen. now im sitting here up and awake and awake and waiting to see what me and sarah do today. and making a promise to neverever call joe again. because. its pathetic. calling someone who doesnt give a fuck. and is 3000some miles away. doing what he does best. notliving. but. it aint my business. and. i cant say i care either way. because. im too lazy today to care about anything. except that the bank owes me 50 dollars and i will not be robbed. bastards. and i need to return a cd i bought from work. how did i know id get a defective one. i just knew it. the. joke. is. on. me. ha. ga.