I don't know what to do anymore. Days just pass by. I feel so unaware. I miss writing in my 'real' journal. I think I'll start doing that again. Not much has changed. From yesterday. Same old, same old. Time just keeps on going by. Like sand through my hands. I don't know if I should give him my number. I don't think I should e mail him back at all. I shouldn't have bothered him in the first place. But boredom kills. Makes you do stupid things. My stomach feels a little nervous right now. Shaky. I should've kept up on my tanning. I got lazy. My package runs out soon. I have 5 days to get tan. I don't know if I feel like it now. Doesn't seem to be so important. I hate when I get lazy. If only my stomach didn't hurt so much. SEB and J are finally a 'real' item. Congrats. I don't know what else to say. I don't know J all that well. We spoke for 15 minutes once. So I don't know. I hear he's a good guy. A nice person. Fun. Happy. I guess I'll see. I don't know the point of anything anymore. I'm not happy or sad or anything. Just breathing I guess. Taking it all in. Working on my strategy. Getting my plan together. I'm tired. Done for now.