its weird and stupid and pathetic and dull and lame and ridiculous. but. i find myself missing joe. missing the idea of joe. i miss looking forward and un-forward to seeing him or speaking to him. he was a good guy. a decent enough guy. a smart guy. definitely a funny guy. i know im the one who messed it up. who pushed way too hard. i do wish we couldve been friends. i always did wish that. pathetically. i miss enjoying him. i dont miss the criticism though. or the small ways he had of putting me down. i suppose we/ll never meet again. im.the.kind.of.girl.youre.glad.to.see.go. im the kind of girl who isnt missed. my being there or not there never matters. im the kind of girl you dont miss. im the kind of girl you dont remember. hard to remember. easy to forget. damn i feel down.