not really an early bird. but. i can only sleep so much before my body forces me to get up. wake up. stand up. and move. think. breathe. feel. deal. all over again. topsy turvy. turvy topsy. the good guy was supposed to come through for me. bring to me. what i need in me. a little motivation. inspiration. feel free to add another word ending in -TION. because im fresh out. on purpose. ----------------------- the girl to my tall boy mind you is named well enough mary. a girl who crushed on my crush for more time then shouldve been allowed. something happened between them. one way or another. and she became his "sugar momma" have you. unexpectedly im sure. because it does creep up on you from time to time. before you even realize. "youre nothing to me like mary" so he says. so everyone says a lot of things. i say a lot of things. like right now. and now. and in another moment. and that is what it is. ------------------------------- i miss the old crowd i used to have. hollywood. jacknasty. meggie. gare. joey. johnathon. luke. and the others. i miss the people i used to be able to rely on for a smile. but i guess. you lose some to win some. or at least thats how jayz views it. and we all know rappers usually have the key to life wrapped up in their almost impossible to understand fragment sentences. --------------------------------- now im stuck. between a rock and a hard place. or not really. i dont feel like writing anymore right now.