(Yawn, yawn, yawn) Today was a nice, thrilling day. I got to see Pat today. *WooooHoooo* Riiiight. I don't know about anything with that kid anymore. One minute this. Next minute that. I don't have the patience, nor energy to play games. (Forgotten) SEB and I seem to be at a dangerous distance. We hardly talk anymore. Well, she hardly calls anymore. I'm a little surprised and a little worried at the same time. Have I done something? Did I make some stupid mistake? Are we still friends? *Sigh* I'm a little hurt too. It's not a huge shock though. Most girls give up friendships for relationships. It's a repeated story around here. SEB has J now, and all is well for them. And like usual I'm left standing alone, confused. (Life is tricky, indeed) I'm no longer going to analyze certain situations. I've decided against it. I annoy myself. That's why I'm giving up P and K. (Give up) (Gave up) (Up?) I feel burnt right now. This lifestyle is wearing me out. I'm getting tired of it, actually. It's been awhile since I've felt this worn down. My winding-key has been wound too tight. I'm a toy on a rampage. It's a little frightening and exciting at the same time. I do have a problem though. And this problem will continue. I don't know how to stop myself. SEB isn't around to talk too. And I think this is the first time that she hasn't been here since I met her. I've never opened up to her before, not really. Not truthfully. I could, no, I want to do it now. And she's no where to be found. ("Hold me?") I don't know what to think right now. My brain's fried. Scrambled. Baked. Toasted. Raw. It's all the same. No one cares anyways. It's an endless game. "I need a little help..." DFN