2 years ago. and now im 25. no farther ahead. not much farther behind. i need to make stronger relations. im missing home deep today. because. we wouldve celebrated. somewhat. somehow. and out here. i dont have anyone. no one personal and close. not really. and yes. the same rules do apply. and i almost forgot. that if you need to get some thing done. do not. cannot rely on others. especially the people i know here. must get up. must get out. and do it yourself. so it was my mistake. actually. 25. and celebrating it with no one. because there isnt anyone in particular i want to celebrate it with. im figuring they matter less and less to me. if im unimportant to you. i lose interest. i need to work on getting a grip. and getting away from this scene im in now. i dont care for it much. no hating. or despising. just not comfortable. unsettled. and looking for some thing not offered here. i miss home today. i miss 7th street and real people. my few people. i miss my family. and getting stoned. cold. out. and smoking more. and drinking a bit. and throwing a fit. and getting together for it. oh well. maybe next birthday ill be able to go home. and celebrate with my friends.