I have decided that I am officially finished with K and P. Especially my crush on P because he apparently has a girl and apparently isn't interested in me at all. It doesn't matter and I don't feel bad like I usually do. I actually feel good. I don't need anyone right now and I do better on my own anyways. I am glad that these silly crushes are finally losing their grip on me. Things are going to be fine with me eventually. It always takes time for me to get used to how things are now. I can't help but feel kind of happy knowing that I am getting over these feelings for people I barely know. I guess things are changing. Although it's all going slow it doesn't really matter because in time it will all be different. We may move to Kentucky. I'm not sure what's exactly there to do or se, but a change would be nice. A big change is needed. I keep cutting my hair. It feels nice to do something out of the norm. I avoided K today, but that's hiw fault he acts weird, no he acts stuck up every time I stop and talk to him. It's useless and ridiculous for me to waste my time with either one of these chumps. They can't handle this. I haven't met a guy yet who could. Oh well if they all want their plastic Barbie dolls, with big empty blue eyes, and long bleached blonde hair. I'm different and I am beginning to accept that. It feels kind of nice to be different. I will not conform. I don't fit the mold, but hell I rock anyways. I am done for now.