being a waste for almost 24 years. has. done. nothing. for. me. except insure that i will always be working underpaid child jobs. i am so unprofessional it hurts. i have no real valuable experience doing anything other then getting high and getting drunk and wasting my life. i went to fucking college. and. cant. even. make. it. because. i didnt put in the time and effort and responsibility that i should have. because. i was busy getting high and drunk and being lazy and spoiled. and. look at me now. headed nowhere. always headed nowhere. i guess i should go back to the little ice cream place. i could. and should. and maybe. no. i wont. because. theyre highschoolers there. i am 23 years old. this cannot be all i have. this cannot be all ill ever be. fucking. pathetic. i. must. go. back. to. school. i have to get on the ball here. the world is falling apart whether we like it or not. and i am going to need funds and resources. for. when. it. does. all. fall. apart. and i cant keep working petty little jobs. for petty little cash. and answering the same pathetic customer service questions. day in. and day out. borders wont call. i wouldnt call me. im unprofessional. and too spaced out. i dont know if ill make it here. im really beginning to think i wont make it any place that has standards. real. fucking. standards. its times like this that i miss erie. because. erie. has. no. standards. fucking hell. im going to have to bullshit sarah for a moment or two. i know im going to hear that little whiny in her voice that irritates the shit out of me. but. i dont want to be a waste here in vegas. working. like. a. child. in. a. fucking. nowhere. place. im going to have to tweak it a bit. lie a bit more. to save myself from her lectures. i do believe i am the only soontobe 24 year old waste left on the planet. so much time spent rebelling against the system. and now i desperately need in. or im doomed to live a life of working and working and customer servicing and deadend fucking kid jobs. what a fucking pain. please bring me a real job. at least a few chances to get one. please. fucking hell.