K has left the area. I called him last night, for conversation I think. He was already in N.C. He was in a hotel room. He couldn't talk long because of the charge. He rambled on for awhile. It's a shame he's gone. No teary goodbyes or hugs. It doesn't bother me though. I didn't know him all that well. I may e mail him some time, but I highly doubt he'll respond. I'm giving up on Pat. He isn't worth my mental anguish. Or my emotional pain. I barely know him either. Besides he has a girlfriend. I'm sure she's more his boring type. I think I'll delete him off of my messanger. I won't think about him getting online if I can't see him. It's ridiculous to feel this way. I know that. I accept my foolishness. All things fall away eventually. Today is another boring day. Another day of mourning for my own sake. It's a shame this site may close down. It's a shame everything has to come down to money. If not money than looks. If not looks than stupidity. It's all the same in this game. Screw those who don't understand. Screw those who don't get it. Who don't see. Who don't feel. Screw them. In the end nothing matters. Done for now.