i am living. i am dead. i am numb. covered in lead. breathing. lightly. on the. way. down. faling. into holes of. that stuff. and such. and following down great hallways of life. come these things. and those things of nicer things and sweeter dreams have gone and ceased. from great things. of nothings. and everythings.and all things. coming down. falling down. going down. down. down. down. down. and more down. and less down. and coming down. this is my life. a cutting knife. slicing through. bringing blue. and still he remains on my mind. like a pain. stinging deep. inside. and i cannot fight it. and hate it. not liking it. despising it. like lies. against my cold flesh and hell. do well. i have fell. right. down. and. can't. get. up. yet. someday.