"Slowly my eyes will open and slowly they will close." I won't complain today, well not a lot anyways. I don't have much to complain about. Well maybe I do. I just don't really feel like it right now. My credit card bill is due in fucking 8 days. I should've mailed it out when I had the money in my hand, but fortunately enough other things came into focus. Dani wasn't home the other day, so I went down to Wen's. L came through and we scored a good time. I can honestly say I like L more then my own cousin. Sad, I know. But this is life. I'll try Dani again soon. I need to visit with her some before I head back to good ol classes. I have almost 10 days until school returns. I am keeping my hopes pinned on Homecoming weekend. Maybe that I will enjoy. So. What else? I don't know. I keep having painful realizations about myself and my life. I have so many things to change I'm not sure I can do it all. Not in this lifetime anyways. I don't know. No more complaining. Life is what it is, suck it up and move on. *Pausing* Done for now.