Playing the game of life is a challenge all on it's own. Surviving is almost damned near impossible. If you are weak, that is. Today I walked for about an hour. That may not sound like a lot to some, but for someone who is not used to moving very much it was a small challenge. It felt good. To just get out, listening to music and just walking until my legs hurt. I needed that. I thought about everything. I thought about nothing at all. It's sad that we are at war. It's sad that we have to have wars at all. It's sad that people have to die in such horrible ways. I think about the world some times and all I want to do is cry. Children suffer. People starve. Wars. Constant fighting in countries. Suffering economy. Greed. Power struggles. Suffering. Pain. I guess I just wonder what would happen if everyone was actually equal. They say we all have rights, but I don't believe that. We only have the rights that are given to us. Some times I wonder if maybe we shouldn't be fighting for black rights, gay rights, or the like, but just for human rights. Deep down we are all the same. Bone and flesh. Mind and soul. I don't know. All I do know is that I wish that it was all just peaceful and safe. We all deserve protection, love, and compassion. I am trying to let go of all the things that bother me. I have decided to change once and for all. To leave behind the past and to march onto to my future, whatever that may be. In the end at least I'll be able to say I tried. You never truly fail as long as you try. It won't be easy to break 21 years of bad habits and laziness, but I am sure as hell going to give it a go. Well I am done waiting for him to get online, I think I'll go buy myself a new bra. I am done for now.