he's a wheeler and dealer from the east side. i hate him now. he was my dream and scheme for a moment. until he decided to leave. like they all do. walk away. because i don't seem to get the vibes they send. because they send them confused like. and randomly. from no where. to nothing. i don't care for him any longer. and for his sake. he shouldn't call. or come around now. stay away. today. and tomorrow. because i'm tired of him. he's obsessed with her anyways. he is saturated in her. and not me. never me. as usual. and it doesn't really matter. because i'd like to think i'm leaving. i want too. i do. and will. set a date. buy a ticket. and evacuate. done. and. done. so fuck joe. and all those others. before. and after. all great things cause pain. it isn't worth it otherwise. to feel something. is to be something. for a moment in time. and more then this before. and goodbye to all of my joes. and hello to more of living. why couldnt i cross his mind. once. or. twice.