Up early today. Went to sleep early last night. After smoking. After listening to some Indian music. Indian as in from India. Pretty bored today. Don't feel like calling or talking to SEB today. Same old thing again and again. Kind of annoying. Might go and see Dani today. Hug the baby. Smoke up if possible. Probably not. Going to get the canvas today. Some glue. Some paint. Some other artistic stuff. Can't wait. Wanted to write Keith an e mail. A descriptive, heart-felt e mail describing my feelings to him. Easy enough. Corny enough. Concentrated hard on it last night. The things to say. How to say them. How to make the words make some sense. Probably won't write. It's seems silly now. Weird. Corny. Barely know him anyways. Won't see him again. Better to leave things alone. Finished. Wish could go out tonight. Get drunk. Have some fun. This summer is going to be the worst. Can already tell. Can feel it. That sucks. This sucks. Sucks. Not feeling motivated today. Don't feel like moving. Or shifting. Or anything. Feel like crawling back into bed for some more sleeping. Won't though. Got plenty to do today. Time to get dressed. Time to shop for meat. Time to look at canvases. Time. Done for now.