i am sitting here. stoned. typing. wishing i was still. somewhere else. far off and away. i guess these things happen. all things. moving. forward. coming. back. ring of the phone. dani. they'll be at the ball court. i can come over if i like. i did. went over. took a fast. small. ride. to dani's. to the store. to the court. tm walked out. left. was going. shane and kyree left too. cold outside. sort of. that middle of the winter/summer coldness. shivering. we played some ball. and then we walked. settled down. and smoked. looking over the shoulder all the time is no fun. but necessary. got high. in the kite sky. rambled on about life and art and pricks and shit. tm took forever to get back. my basketball got dog poo on it. i hate sports. so now i'm here. feeling all unbalanced and uncentered. my head spinning. my stomach screaming. i had one cheese/stick today. it was good. mind keeps wandering to horrible patrick. i hate thee. almost completely. i think i'll go now. my fingers are sleepy. dfn.