i think. im. a. bit. relieved. that i probably wont be living with gorge and his friend rob. not exactly what i expected. and. it was weird. because. its just weird with gorge. dealing with him. im not sure why. i dont think we mix well. and. i think ill quit on all of that. i wont go home. thats just how it is. gorge or no gorge. room or no room. with those guys. is fine. ill find some place to stay. maybe. rest on someones floor for a bit. i hope. gorge. just doesnt mention it. because. i definitely wont. it was too awkward i think. im not sure why. eh. ill find somewhere to stay. i refuse to go back to erie. regardless of what happens with this room thing. i dont worry. because. worrying just uses up too much good energy. so fuck that. and. itll be alright if i dont get their room. im not feeling it really. i dont feel dude like that. its just weird. and too subdued for me. ill be fine one way or another. so i wonder if dude is going to send my check back. or. what. if erick got his on thursday. then. dude mustve gotten his too. eh. either way. it doesnt matter. i suppose. either he ll use it or he wont. i could give a fuck lately. about anything that happens. worrying. is. for. losers. word. i think ill go smoke a bit. tomorrow is my friday which means tuesday and wednesday are my saturday and sunday. how nice.