a round about day

by skrewedangel

i dont know what it is im supposed to be doing with my life.

ive spent so much time doing so little and so much drinking that thats all that i think about or know.

and now im waking up and finding out that this sober life isnt as i thought it would be.

nor is it the worst. but im not nearly 28 anymore or even 35. and time seems a little more important these days.

i wish i had a friend. a real friend. one i didnt have to be pretend around.

one that wasnt so easily tired or offended.

someone different.

but i guess thats what everyone wants.

someone different like me.

someone different like them.

are any of us really that different tho.

really.

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...Keep on doing that. My mother turns 70 this year and she still stays on the liqour and wine. She cannot built up a relationship to me, my sons or my wife. She cannot listen to what i want to tell her. She is lonely and will stay lonely - in her heart and in a self choosen exile. I don't have any suggestion for you how to find friends. Just know, that there are people - like me- which are interested in others. I really wish, you stumble upon some IRL. I engage myself in the local community in some societies and that helped and helps a lot. -be well
Hey there. I have to say i'm totally proud of you and adore you for living a sober life. I grew up in an alcoholics family and until i was 28 or so i didn't realise that there was something wrong with the way of life my parents chose. That was also the time i quit taking drugs (at least most of them) and realised that a life without pot and pills is actually better because i remember things which happen during the days and weeks and years. Sometimes i meet people which i know from my childhood and they ask what i did the last 10 years. Now i'm 42 and i can tell them what i did the last 10 years and i like it. I think the success of quitting something addictable is not immediately visible but it will come and enrich your heart and sould at one point. People who meet me and ask what i did after i graduated school embarrass me, cause i have also 8-9 years of which i cannot recall in my memories. I don't know what you should do better with your life, because you already did it.