so.i.guess.or.assume.by.next.month. ill be living with gorge. and. his faithful companion. rob. weird. very. weird. in.a.way. i guess. just weird. is the only word i can think of. when i think of gorge. or living with him. and. how it all happens. in such a weird circle. but. i.will.do.anything. to avoid going home. going back. going there. to.the.east. i will do whatever it takes. and. maybe right now it takes me living with gorge. and. i call him. gorge. because. hes gorgeous. one of those pretty boys. and. i wonder about him. and. our flirting since i came to work where i work. its.weird. because. he.is.gay. an unavoidable nature. but. maybe. its just more or something. since i started working. he started asking questions. and. talking. and. talking. and. at first i didnt think id keep talking to him. but. its unavoidable. because. i like him. in.a.different.way. an unusual way. and. he seemed more excited then i. asking about moving in or not. and i didnt think he would ask. but. i was surprised. and. i guess. i have no choice right now. thank you. for the chance. thank you. for the glance. thank you. for bringing some weird gay kid into my life. for right now. as long as it lasts. and. i like the look of his eyes. and. our. natural. chemistry. which. wavers. back. and. forth. and. how. natural. and. weird. it. seems. he isnt the boy of many things. and. he isnt the boy of my gayest dreams. but. he seems nice. so please let it all be. i dont want to leave. and. if this is where it must go for now. then let it go there. i will deal with whatever happens. i always deal. well. with. others. i must remember.though. to keep my things close. i do believe i need a bigger purse. i may be naive. and. retarded. and. stupid. more times then once. but. i am not a complete sucker. not. completely. i hope this works out. because. i am not leaving. i refuse.