rock.the.world. spell.the.word. drop.the.dime. pick.up.space. ive decided. to somehow get my car. i need my wheels. my sally. ride.sally.ride. i.need.to.drive.fast. no. it isnt that i do not enjoy the bus. it isnt that i do not enjoy walking. i would just prefer.to. have wheels. i would just prefer to drive around. carelessly. but. the question. is how. how to get my 1 ton vehicle. out here. how. do. i. how. should. i. how. can. i. damnit. ill figure something out. so. i am customer service something for this month. and. how nice. i guess it is. everyone seems to be nice. and. i hope it lasts. but. that depends on me more then anything. no. i will not get too comfortable. because. being comfortable. only brings about over confidence which brings a down.fall. you can never feel too secure in anything. so. i wont. i wont. i refuse to feel comfortable. because. settling only back.fires on me. again and again. im. sorry. i. dont. pray. that. way. tainted.love. take.my.tears. tainted.love. it is all tainted. stained. and lovely so. i feel alright tonight. better then i did this morning. i am lacking a vitamin i believe. eventually. i will pass out and most likely traumatize some innocent customer. unawares. i. must. cure. these. ailments. personal. and. body.wise. we/re.all.stars.in.the.dope.show. i miss drugs. i miss alcohol. i miss drugs. drugs. snorting.the.white.god. and. relaxing. with that ill feeling in my stomach. fucking.a. i dont want to see pennsylvania anytime soon. i have nothing there. and no one. to look forward to seeing. danielles a prostitute. lisa.and.will. will never change. no family there. not really. and. butterbuns is on my fucked.list. bastard. i wonder if joe ever thinks about me. probably not. at least not on good terms. but. most likely never on any terms. ill never see him again. and. thats a bit of a shame. i do have such an elegant way of fucking things up. strictly.professional. strictly.pro.fess.ion.al. always. i need a guy. i need a nice.hot. guy to make out with. contrary to popular belief. i am not a lesbian. although. if i were. id be a kick.ass. dike. of course. id definitely be on top. wait. does it work that. way? i need to brush up on my lesbianism. but. i do wish i had a nice.hot. guy to kiss and cock.tease. i need to have sex someday. at this rate i/ll be nearly 80 by the time i get my first pen(i). how pathetic. but. i dont necessarily want to lose it while my body/s still recovering from losing so much weight. i also need a tan. and. if possible. some definition. i dont know. rambling is the best thing i do. its the only habit ive perfected without fucking it up. woo. hoo. i hope tomorrow goes better then fucking today. bitches in my face getting all upp.ity. if i ruled the world. you/d just be allowed to rip any bitch/s face off. r. i. p. hubert selby jr. is my frikkin hero. all hail anguish. all hail selby.