[the low down on me] I'm sick of being unhappy. and sad. I'm tired of being a 'thinker.' I'm obsessive. and easily infatuated. I stalk and love from a distance. I always think of brilliant ideas. but i never follow through. I'm lazy and judg(e)mental. I'm easily upset. and i have a vicious temper. I'm a 22 year old virgin. who's never had a boyfriend. or a kiss. or a hug. I'm depressed most of the time. and if i'm not depressed, i'm not happy. I'm shallow. and deep. I get tired easily. and bored just the same. I like to start books. and never finish. I make plans. i don't follow up on. I'm easily distracted. and retracted. I feel retarded most of the time. I'm not blonde. nor thin. nor pretty. I enjoy the darker things in life. I obsess over death. and the after-life. I don't like doing anything. i like to sleep. I'm picky about friends. and i'm lonely almost all of the time. I feel desperate. I like attention. and the Spot-light. I'm funny sometimes. and witty other times. I thrive on sarcasm. and insults. I get a small joy out of making people suffer. (emotionally, mentally, etc.) I'm twisted. and tied in knots. I never rest long enough. Sometimes I like to eat. other times i enjoy starving. going on the little bit i can. I love competition. I yearn for love. i don't believe in true love. I don't believe in much anymore. Funerals, amaze me. Birthdays are a bore. I don't like people. (misanthrope) I love Shakespeare. and Taritino. I hate most new things. bands. actors. movies. I relish in the old times. the better times. I'm mentally dependant on food. Emotionally insecure. I make my own enemies. by choice. I like being mean. I have very little reason to be nice. My philosophy is skid-ish. I'm a hypocrite. and proud. I don't pretend to know. i prefer not too. Gossip is nothing to me. Lies are even less. Speaking of (lies). It's a hobby of mine. lying. I enjoy it also. Making things up. and following it through. I piss people off. just to feel their reaction. I start fights. and i hate fighting. Weird things get me off. I've read the Celestine Prophecy. and Fight Club. I'm a fan of DeNiro films. and Nicholson. I live for horror flicks. and porno. I laugh when I shouldn't. I like to watch the clock. I feel down right now. and probably will tomorrow. I believe in miracles. and magic tricks. Lions are my favorite animal. and so are hellhounds. 13 is my lucky number. 7 is too. Halloween should've been my birthday. Christmas my death-day. I don't believe in coincidences. I don't like trends. or fashion. I don't like socks. and sandals. I don't like emotions. I don't like myself. I don't like this life. [And that is who I am] Do you feel better? I don't. Unfortunately. (PRD will never be mentioned again) I'm sure you feel relieved. I'm letting things go. I have too. This break is going to give me new life. A new way. A change. I have 7 days. My mind is just tired. As is my soul. Of feeling so alone. And waiting to be whole. "And the band marches on..." DFN.