change. it happens. some times when unexpected or unwanted. i moved. out. i moved. on. now im temporarily being sheltered. id like to say im terrified. maybe even extremely worried. but i cant bring myself to feel it. to feel the stress. it comes in small waves but does not remain. it passes as soon as it settles. the only good thing in my life is my new job. my new boss knows about most of my problems. and doesnt seem to be bothered. he seems supportive. nice. comforting. i will not end up back in that fucked up little town. and now joe seems to be ignoring me. i need my car. but i dont see him bringing it to me. he doesnt answer me anymore. he seems to be avoiding me. im getting pissed. anxious with him. my life is absolutely fucking ridiculous right now. stupid. dumb. fucked up. screwed up. messed. down. crumbling away. pieces. what the hell is to become of me?