"O, what a wicked web we weave when we first learn to deceive." [Beware, lying may be hazardous to your health] So here I am. another day. sitting. wishing. Nervous ticking. I can't help it. I get this way each time. I could just do the 'right' thing. The honorable thing. The easier way. But I tend to make things more difficult. I seem to like it that way. Things will probably go down hill after this. I'll plead for a lesser count if I can. (If it all comes to that.) I'm stuck between a STONE and a HARDER PLACE. It's slightly nerve-wracking. (RACKING?) Either way you like it. I've got homework to do today slash tonight. Slash tomorrow. Slash. slash. I like that word. don't you? no? Doesn't matter. I fucking like it. I won't do much. today. tomorrow. afterwards. It's fine. I'll accept whatever comes. *Shaking* I will. I just hope it doesn't come down to that. I have this feeling that it could all go either way. I see a 50% chance of a good outcome. No rain in that scope. Than again. There's also a 50% chance of a bad outcome. This is what rattles my already wretched nerves. So shutting up about that. *BITE IT* I need to do something. learn or something. I need to stop fucking up. And all that good shit. I feel like going back to bed for a few hours. Resting a bit more. Putting my soul at ease. (soul?) That's not exactly what I mean or meant. I'm not sure anymore. Just when I think it all makes sense, it doesn't. SEB is having problems with K and J still. She needs to get a grip and deal with this shit, like FOR REAL. (Excuse my ghetto-fab language) I have a story I'm working on. It involves some of the things I know. *Clever, aren't I?* No. So anyways. Again and again and again. I think right now I'll go and just do something else that doesn't involve so much. damn thinking. "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaadriannnnnnnnn!" DFN.